I find myself in a place where I have a deep desire and yearning to consider the pure goodness of the Lord, my God.  In our broken world, overflowing with pain and suffering, I so often have a really hard time to ground myself in the goodness of God.  I find it so much easier to bask in His love, grace and mercy, but I struggle with His goodness — not because I don’t believe it, but because I cannot see it.

It is Lent, essentially a build up to Easter, the most important event on the Christian calendar and I weep for the state of the church.  On the one hand there are disillusioned clergywomen-victims of a flagitious fallout as a result of the misogynistic decision of a group of insecure clergymen.  On the other hand there are vulnerable, violated victims who are diabolically duped by shameless sexual predators disguised as priests and prophets who are protected by a hyper-charismatic cover-up culture.

My soul feels pierced, I can SEE, HEAR and FEEL how Jesus wept for Jerusalem, and somehow, I cannot help but wonder how the state of our modern day church makes Him feel.  I think He weeps too….

I wrote a poem about the goodness of God, and with the help of my firstborn son, Daniel, I also include the song he produced from my poem.

Oh Lord, I love You

Your mercies never end,

Your unceasing love is steadfast

Every moment of my life

I will always remember

The Goodness of my God

 

You have never left my side

Great is Your faithfulness

I will wait on my Lord,

I will always remember

The Goodness of my God

 

Oh Lord, my Hope

You are my Stronghold

My Redeemer and my Refuge

In all of my brokenness

I will always remember

The Goodness of my God

 

You have never left my side

Great is Your faithfulness

I will wait on my Lord,

I will always remember

The Goodness of my God

 

I will wait on You, I will quietly wait on You, with reverence and awe

I will wait on You, I will quietly wait on You, with reverence and awe

I surrender ALL of me to You, every single breath

Thank You, Lord

I will always remember

The Goodness of my God

 

You will never leave my side

Great is Your faithfulness

You know me, inside and out,

I will always remember

The Goodness of my God

“The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; His mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness. “The Lord is my portion,” says my soul, “therefore I will hope in Him.” The Lord is good to those who wait for Him, to the soul who seeks Him. It is good that one should wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.”  Lamentations‬ ‭3‬:‭22‬-‭26‬ ‭ESV‬‬

“The Lord is good, a stronghold in the day of trouble; He knows those who take refuge in Him.”  Nahum‬ ‭1‬:‭7‬ ‭ESV‬‬

“Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe,”  Hebrews‬ ‭12‬:‭28‬ ‭NIV‬‬